Mr Kitten

location: House of Seoul

mood: numb

music: A Fine Frenzy - Almost Lover

hello world
full of sadness
so much things going on
up in my mind

im glad that i got my hair done
everytime i feel crazy
i'll just think of extreme things
say hello to orange green blue and blonde :)

i dont know what to say anymore
all im saying's that i feel so lonely right now

so its mums birthday today
i guess she's in mecca right now
i didnt even got the chance to talk to her
i mean, i dont know what to say
i just wish i can hug her
i'll pray for her safety
oh god. im so worried about my nephew
im so worried about things at home
i am so worried
as much as i wanna say that everything will be fine,
i cant assure myself that everything is fine when im not around

i need to talk to someone so bad
oh god. dont know why my heart hurts so much
): dont know why my head's in pain
dont know why, dont know why, dont know why

i dont know what to do anymore
i dont know what to think anymore
so i guess im not suppose to do anything anymore
and im not gonna think about it
grrr. so drained out thinking about it.

as much as i feel that im strong,
im weak.

location: House Of Seoul

mood: sleepy

music: Aretha Franklin - Deeper Love

oh hello world.
lots of love from korea.
gonna be here till august.
dancing for the world expo.
representing singapore!
get to meet people from all over the world!
hoooorrayyyy (:

i went thru quite a bit to get my ass here.
so im not gonna let them affect me and my reason
to be here.
suddenly i feel like im competing in antm.
lame much.
oh god, i cant believe im still awake.
its 530 in the morning.
oh, story of my life.

i couldnt believe that im actually trying to speak korean
oh god. i will never ever love this language.
dont know why its so phenomenal and people going crazy over koreans.
no offence tho. hehe. just that i dont really fancy the language.
too tough for me. heh.

i miss everybody
miss my mum ):
her birthday's coming.
missing my big bad wolf.
grrr.

so ive explored this city quite a bit.
haa, i gotta control my money for shopping.
its so tempting to get my hands on those colourful
fabrics. but haaa, gotta play smart,
OVERPRICED!
yes! it is!
party was good. it's so not what i expected it to be.
oh well, its gonne be three months here.
anything can happen.

still getting use to having a roomate.
and living in house with the rest of the dancers.
haaa. and god, dont ever step into my room,
and my space. its so fuckery messy!
dont like :[

i promise i will try to update as much as i can
type whatever nonsense here.
like i said again, if you dont like reading my things here,
leave this page, visit your fave porn site and wank.
kisses and hugs xx

location: House of Ninja

mood: thirsty

music: Mariah Carey - My All

hello world.
im still up.
had to clean up my room.
grrr.. few days left, and goodbye room.
gonna miss all my bears and kittens. hehe.

so much things to pack.
will be performing for avalon tonight
for the super happening party
its glitter ball! wohoo!
thing is, i'll have to stay after party's over
cause, its hello KL!
will be performing for marketplace.
im so gonna sleep in the bus.
6hours journey! better be good!

meow meow meow meow meow meow
meow meow woof meow meaf-ow. hehe.

will be back on 1st May
so hopefully can have dinner with mum.
im so glad that she's finally going to Mecca.
i dont know what to get for her since her birthday
is coming too. so before i fly off, i need to get her
something! xxxx

will be flying off on the third of may
sighs. im gonna miss everyone here.
especially you!
you know who you are :] heee

i am so glad,
like finally ive proven to myself that
im able to swallow all the hard times
and still standing strong.

yeah yeah, im still weak inside.
its gonna take a while for this wound to heal.
what can i do.
hehe, no rush no rush.
meow meow.

im so glad everything's falling into place now
well, besides losing my ic, which reminds me,
i have to make my report soon before i fly off (:

oh grr, this is my journal.
i have to treat it like one.
haa. im kinda lazy to write nowadays,
but that doesnt mean i dont have a diary.
hehe, lots of cute stuffs in my diary.
fur, meow meow, baby izzy.

i always keep this part short,
cause its yellow. haha!
i love chocolates. yum.

having performance on friday
the following day
on the 26th, and looking forward for first shoot
together with luke and andrew on the 28th
and im looking forward for glitter ball end of this month!

i miss my dear sheiryn.
wonder how's she doing now.
now that she's back from Japan,
she better get Harajuku with me!
that lesbian girl. hehe well my lesbian partner.
i'll turn les for her, just her.

if you aint liking what you read here,
close this down, or type your favourite porn link (:
this is my kitten, and i meow everything in it.
so meow for me?
hehe..

im happy with my life now
despite those depressed moments
hey, the world's waiting for me.
but hunneh, i wont ever forget you (:
miss you so uber much please!
<3 <3 <3

location: House of Ninja

mood: okay

music: Smoking Gun - Melody Thornton

ive missed you.
mr kitten.
readin back the old posts.
wow.
what a ride.

finally, im back from the dead.
and now pursuing something greater in life.
and for that one person, you aint gonna bring me down
with you.

the world's waiting for me
and the moment's finally here

oh hello korea!
im gonna be stuck. three months.
looking forward to dance with the others
and its the reason why im actually journalling again!
meow meow

guess i wont be celebrating my birthday in singapore this year
oh yeah, talking bout that, im glad that ive already step into Canada
have to visit my family again in august (: damn, i miss em so much!

im gonna miss you my dear love.
and i'll always love you, no matter.